http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/ i am only trying to break your heart - LiveJournal.com Tue, 01 Jun 2004 07:24:57 GMT LiveJournal / LiveJournal.com plasticrobot 434095 personal http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/15158912/434095 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/ 90 68 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/192520.html Tue, 01 Jun 2004 07:24:57 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/192520.html done. http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/192520.html public 1 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/192420.html Thu, 27 May 2004 12:47:57 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/192420.html i'm in such a good mood today! i don't know why! i woke up at 8am and i was chipper and wide awake. WEIRD. i'm normally not a morning person but apparently today i am! ok off to work i go. http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/192420.html public 0 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/192089.html Wed, 26 May 2004 07:50:00 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/192089.html june 11th - 13th: nyc<br /><br />july 13th - 16th: palm beach! (tentative dates)<br /><br />first week in december: orlando<br /><br />OH MAN! http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/192089.html public 0 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/191806.html Mon, 24 May 2004 17:33:14 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/191806.html <a name="cutid1"></a><br /><img src="http://images.shopbop.com/TRINA243-L.jpg"><br /><br /><img src="http://images.shopbop.com/CHAR18-L.jpg"> http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/191806.html public 1 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/191651.html Mon, 24 May 2004 07:54:09 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/191651.html i have decided today that i'm going to spend most of my time doing productive things. i'm going to learn how to knit and i'm going to start sewing again. i'm going to make sure my house is clean ALL the time. read more books. i just finished one today as a matter of fact. i'm going to watch a lot of movies and drink a lot of tea. i'm going to start writing a lot more often. maybe i'll start writing a book. i'm going to start making things. i'm going to learn how to build things and fix things. i'm going to learn another language and then in a few years i'm going to visit a country and use the language that i've learned. i'm going to stop going out a lot and start focusing on saving my money. i'm going to stop drinking beer and see what drinking water is like. i'm going to start listening to music that ii've never heard before. i'm going to spend a lot of time laying around in my bed doing a whole lot of nothing, because nothing is a whole lot of something sometimes. i'm going to take long walks. i'm going to get a bike and ride it everywhere. i'm going to use the 10 months i have left here to learn more about myself. i'm going to use this ten months to get something accomplished. i'm going to cuddle with my cat more often, and i'm going to sit and listen to the thunderstorms and not be afraid. i'm going to check my mail every other day and not worry about when something hasn't come yet. i'm going to remember that in ten years all the stupid shit that happens probably won't matter, and i probably won't even remember it. i'm going to think a lot more and make alot of plans. i'm going to go on vacation in december with my mom, and it's going to be fun. i'm going to hide my fake ID so i forget where i put it. i'm going to meet more people and i'm going to sit up and have intense conversations all night. i'm going to watch the sun set and the sun rise. i'm going to go to work and i'm going to make money, then i'm going to save that money so i can do something for once. <br />i've already changed a lot, but i have such along way to go. in the end a lot of people aren't going to know who i am. <br />new york in a few weeks. yay! i get to see people i havent seen in YEARS. seriously. i get to hang out with sean, and i miss him. it's going to be awesome.<br />i can't sleep. but i'm not worried about it. i don't have to work until 3pm tomorrow. i can sleep in all i want. it will be great. the next ten months is about ME. i'm happy now, but when i leave here i'm going to be the happiest person in the world. you know why? cause i'm going to have done so much stuff that i've wanted to do for a long time but i haven't been able to because i don't have motivation or patience. <br />now the only thing left to do is find someone that i can cook dinenr for and cuddle with at night. http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/191651.html public 2 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/191229.html Thu, 20 May 2004 23:09:32 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/191229.html i weighed myself on the scale at work today and i have gained an incredible amount of weight in the past few months. i've always weighed around 115, i now weigh almost 139. so i'm going on a diet and i'm going to start a daily workout routine.<br /><br />- i'm only going to eat red meat once a month. i'm just going to eat fish occasionally now for protein, and stuff like that. maybe like once or twice a week, and smaller portions.<br />- for the next two weeks i'm staying away from bread, pasta, ect.<br />- no more eggs. only egg whites.<br />- no more soda, drinks with lots of sugar and a LOT less alcohol. i'm going to drink at least 8 glasses of water a day and i'm limiting myself to drinking beer only one day a week, 2 at most.<br />- NO MORE EATING OUT.<br />- lots of fruit and vegetables.<br />- no sauces and smaller portions.<br />- i'm going to attempt to eat 6 small meals a day. like 2 egg whites for breakfast, a peice of fruit for a snack, a salad for lunch, some carrot sticks for another snack, a small peice of fish and some vegetables for dinner, ect.<br /><br />i'm going to do at least 50 stomach crunches daily, and jogging.<br />i'm not fat, and i know this. but i'm way out of shape and i'd like to get back down to 115 because i'm not happy.<br /><br /><br /><br />i ALSO have to make a budget, because i'm planning on moving to NYC once my lease is up here.<br /><br /><b>WEEKLY BUDGET</b><br />RENT: $125<br />NYC FUND: $50<br />BILLS: $60<br />FOOD: $15 (my food stamps weren't renewed for some reason. but i can get a lot of vegetables ect from work, so i don't have to spend much on food,w hich is good)<br />HABITS: $8 (i'm only going to allow myself to purchase 2 packs of cigarettes a week. since i'm cutting down on drinking it hopefully won't be hard)<br />LIVING: whatever is left over. i'll be making more than $200 a week so i'll be able to afford stuff i need, like tampons or whatever.<br /><br />= $258+<br /><br />i work about 24 hours at Walter's @ $8.50/hr, so that is about $200<br />the i'm going to be working quite a few hours at MLD @ $10/hr about 9 hours a day AT LEAST 3 days a week, and last time my check was $192 for 22 hours, so i'll be making at least $200 a week there so in all that's like $400. i definitely will ave enough money for my budget, and i'll probably be able to save more than $50 a week http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/191229.html public 2 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/190800.html Wed, 19 May 2004 17:19:30 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/190800.html i got a <b>dresser</b><br />it's <b>red</b>, but i am going to paint it <b>bright green</b>. i think.<br /><br />i have a busy <b>schedule</b> for the next two weeks.<br />today: work @ walter's (the resteraunt). 3pm - 9:30ish<br />tomorrow: work at maine lobster direct. 10am - 5pm<br />friday: walter's. 5 - 10:30ish<br />saturday: off<br />sunday: walter's. 3 - 9:30ish<br />monday: walter's. 3 - 9:30ish<br />tuesday: off<br />wednesday: walter's. 3 - 9:30ish<br />thursday: maine lobster direct. 8am - 5pm<br />friday: maine lobster direct. 8am - 4:30 <b>THEN</b> walter's. 5 - 10:30ish<br /><br />so yeah that's the upcoming week or so. then on <b>june 11th</b> i will be heading to <b>NYC</b> to help my friend molly move. i will be there the 11th and 12th and i will start heading back to maine on the morning of the 13th. then that week will be way fuller than this week.<br />starting monday i'm working all week at maine lobster direct at 8am, then on monday, wednesday and friday night i will be going straight from maine lobster direct to walter's to work. i'm going to be so tired. but i'm going to be able to save so much money. i'm so excited.<br />i'm going to start saving for in 10 months when my lease is up ihere and i move somewhere else.<br /><br />woo! http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/190800.html public 0 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/190674.html Fri, 14 May 2004 19:31:51 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/190674.html I'M GOING TO GET TO SEE THE CURE IN AUGUST. OH MY GOD I'M GOING TO HAVE AN ORGASM. http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/190674.html public 6 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/190299.html Wed, 12 May 2004 18:26:10 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/190299.html Ten things that make me smile:<br />10. cuddling.<br />9. plants and flowers.<br />8. this beautiful weather.<br />7. being stoned, cause i just can't help it.<br />6. the beach.<br />5. my friends.<br />4. dancing.<br />3. boo kitty.<br />2. photographs.<br />1. cute boys.<br /><br />Nine things that make me mad:<br />9. scenesters.<br />8. boston.<br />7. when my apartment gets dirty.<br />6. falling asleep when there's a hot guy laying next to me when i totally wanted to make out with him.<br />5. scenesters.<br />4. boston.<br />3. scenesters.<br />2. joy.<br />1. rape.<br /><br />Eight things I couldn't live without:<br />8. beer.<br />7. money.<br />6. music.<br />5. the internet. <br />4. food. <br />3. boo kitty.<br />2. my friends.<br />1. a place to live.<br /><br />Seven people I am thankful for:<br />7. my grandparents.<br />6. katherine.<br />5. my new portland crew.<br />4. the old 82 fisher ave. crew.<br />3. jeremy radd because he is my hero.<br />2. the bartenders at amigos.<br />1. boo kitty.<br /><br />Six things I want to acomplish before I die:<br />6. i want to get my life together. before i die, but mostly in the next year or two.<br />5. make a portfolio, gain experience in the feild i want a career in, and actually decide what i really want to do with my life.<br />4. get married and make babies.<br />3. have a lot of fun.<br />2. see the entire world, inside and out.<br />1. do things that i never thought i would do, or could do.<br /><br />Five things I am wearing right now:<br />5. jean skirt.<br />4. white wife beater with a skull on the front that says bony.<br />3. pink cardigan.<br />2. studded belt.<br />1. underwear.<br /><br />Four things I want to do today:<br />4. go to work, i don't want to but i have to.<br />3. clean my apartment.<br />2. listen to music and dance around.<br />1. rest!<br /><br />Three things on my mind:<br />3. that i'm an idiot for passing out last night when i COULD have made out, probably. dammit beer. dammit xanax.<br />2. how much i just want to not go to work and lay in the sun all day. <br />1. that there's an awful lot of beer cans on my floor.<br /><br />Two things I miss:<br />2. not boston. that's for sure.<br />1. buying new clothes every day at my old job.<br /><br />One thing I wish I had<br />1. a HOT boyfriend! http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/190299.html public 4 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/190148.html Mon, 10 May 2004 04:51:32 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/190148.html you know what kind of day you're going to have by the first thing that happens after you wake up. i should have just prepared myself for the worst.<br />1. i woke up all cranky/grumpy/drunk at 9:30am, falling off my bed because people slept over again.<br />2. got in a fight with my friend about something. we had a big long fight all day through text messaging/telephone and friends.<br />3. went into work all banged up. my knees hurt bad, i was hungover and grumpy. still.<br />4. sliced my finger open on a peice of metal, real bad. i bled a LOT. all over my coat, apron, and 2 towels. bled through a bunch of bandages. had to wear a rubber glove at work - and let me tell you. washing dishes is NOT easy with a rubber glove on. it's all slippery and you drop things and ugh.<br />5. the water was so HOT today wt work while i was washing the dishes. i must have 3rd degree burns.<br />6. it was really busy and i've never actually done all that stuff alone, and while busy. i didn't know everything to do. so people got frustrated, and i was scared to ask anyone anything cause i thought they'd get all pissed.<br />ugh.<br />mothers day. blah. i never want to work holidays again.<br />i'm working tomorrow. i wish i could just sleep in but whatever, one mroe day. it won't be that busy so it should be a lot better - except for my aching body.<br />i just want a back rub and a weeks worth of sleep. http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/190148.html public 1 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/189717.html Sun, 09 May 2004 17:28:32 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/189717.html <b>save the drama for your mama.</b><br />seriously.<br /><br />crazy weekend. girls gone WILD! we've been tearing up the town like it's our job.<br />last night i managed to do SOMETHING to my knee. dislocate it, something. all i know is it's all bruised, swollen and it hurts like hell. my other knee is also in pain because the night before last i somehow managed to cut it on something on the walk home. i had a bloody knee.<br />i have to go to work in a few minutes. suuuuck. oh well, it's money.<br />last night i lost a pack of cigarettes in my apartment somehwere. but the night before last i gained a plaster horse head sculpture. score.<br />i need to take a break and sleep for like a week.<br />object of the week: cocktails! http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/189717.html public 1 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/189459.html Sun, 09 May 2004 01:10:32 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/189459.html <img src="http://mywebpage.netscape.com/jldeleskey/serioussss.JPG"> http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/189459.html public 4 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/189399.html Fri, 07 May 2004 00:28:14 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/189399.html i love my life! 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WHERE IS MY CHARGER!?!?!?!?! michelle APPARENTLY sent it out on april 27th. if that in fact was TRUE then i would have it by now, wouldn't i. oh yeahi forgot to mention, michelle lives in MAINE, i live in MAINE. it does not take 5 days for me to get mail from 2 hours away.<br />UGGGGGGGGH.<br />2. MY TAXES DIDN'T COME IN TODAY. WHAT THE HELL. I NEED TO PAY FOR THINGS LIKE BILLS AND I NEED A CIGARETTE.<br /><br />fuckers. http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/188619.html public 2 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/188278.html Mon, 03 May 2004 16:14:20 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/188278.html [spell your first name backwards]: acissej<br />[The story behind your user name]: plastic robot was the ame of my old website and my graphic design company when i was like 16<br />[Where do you live?]: maine<br /><br />DESCRIBE YOUR:<br /><br />[Wallet]: i don't really use one. i tend to just throw all my stuff in my purse, which is why i lose things often.<br />[Jewelry worn daily]: my monroe peircing, nails in my ears lately (hey, i got bored. it's the new fashion statement)<br />[Shoes]: i have a lot of shoes. i can't begin to describe them.<br />[Handbag]: same as the above. i have a LOT of purses. the one i use most often though is just black.<br />[Favorite top]: i don't really have a favorite. <br />[Perfume/Cologne]: this old lady perfume that i use all the time. it smells good though! but there's no brand name. my favorite of all time, however, is obsession by calvin klein.<br />[Piercing]: 3 holes in each ear, cartilage on my right ear, monroe, navel<br />[What you are wearing now]: levi's and a tank top. i don't dress to impress when i'm sitting in my house hungover.<br />[Makeup]: right now: nothing, usually: mascara, sometimes a little eyeshadow and clear lipgloss.<br />[On my mind]: i'm hoping that my phone charger comes in the mail, my taxes come in the mail, that i need to clean my house and what i should do today so i'm not bored as fuck.<br />[Wishing]: to get my taxes.<br />[Talking to]: julia, molly<br />[Eating]: the last thing i ate was an hour ago and it was tuna, just tuna. no bread or anything.<br />[favorite movie]: i like a lot of movies. <br />[something you're looking forward to in the upcoming months]: getting my taxes, hopefully starting to work full time at walter's, doing a little traveling.<br />[The last thing you ate?] tuna.<br />[Something that you are deathly afraid of?]: spiders, sometimes the dark, being alone in my house at night in the dark.<br />[Do you believe in love]: yeah, i believe people fall in love, i don't believe i have yet.<br />[Do you believe in soul mates]: maybe. it all depends on how i look at it.<br />[Do you believe in love at first sight]: sort of.<br />[Do you believe in forgiveness]: sometimes. if someone does something amizingly horrible to me then it will be hard for me to forgive them. it also takes time for me to trust you again. there are very few people in this world that i trust, and those are my best friends and they have never done anything to hurt me that i would need to forgive them for. if it's something trivial then i'll forgive someone, but if you fuck me over, lie to me and talk about me behind my back it's gonna be real hard for me to forgive you.<br />[What are some of your favorite pig out foods?]: chips and sandwiches.<br />[What's something you wish you could understand better?]: people. guys.<br />[Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?]: i haven't really been gone long enough to miss anyone yet. i miss meghan. and i miss people that i used to know in beverly like janessa.<br /><br />In the last 24 hours, have you:<br />[Cried?]: nope.<br />[Gotten sick]: i feel hungover.t hat's about it.<br />[Eaten?]: yes.<br />[Been kissed?]: nope.<br />[Felt stupid?]: yeah last night at the bar when i was STONED and DRUNK. i was pretty stupid, and slow. hah.<br />[Told someone you loved them]: nope.<br />[Met someone new?]: yes.<br />[Moved on?]: i don't have to move on from anything. my life is cool right now.<br />[Talked to an ex?]: nope.<br />[Missed an ex?]: nope.<br />[Talked to someone you have a crush on?]: i don't really have a crush on anyone. i just think some people i have met in the past few days are cute or something.<br />[Had a serious talk?]: nope.<br />[Hugged someone?]: yes.<br />[Fought with your parents?]: nope.<br />[Done something your parents said no to]: i'm 20. my parents don't tell me what to do. we don't even live in the same state.<br /><br />[Would you rather be with friends or on a date?]: friends.<br />[Where is the best hangout?]: depends on who i'm with.<br />[Do you have a job?]: yes.<br />[Who Do you like being around?]: people that i can have fun with and talk to, like hold a conversation with. people that don't have black hair and white belts. <br />[Have you known the longest]: the LONGEST? out of what? in maine the person that i've know the longest here is katherine. other than that. janessa was my best friend throughout highschool. and on top of that i've known my mom longer than i've know any of you.<br />[Do you argue the most with?]: i don't know dude.<br />[Do you always get along with?]: katherine and i get along.<br />[MOST TRUSTWORTHY?] : the friends that i'm close with i trust the most. <br />[Makes you laugh the most?]: everyone makes me laugh. mike made me laugh a LOT last night cause he was retardedly drunk. he was trying to leave my house and kept falling asleep on the way to the door (which is only like 20 feet from where he was sitting).<br />[Has been there through all the hard times?]: i don't know? katherine has been there, we're friends, i've had hard times and she's still here.<br />[Has the coolest parents?]: ...<br />[Has the coolest siblings?]: ...<br />[Is the most blunt?]: i don't know.<br />[Is the smartest?]: me.<br />[Who is your role model?]: i don't know if i really have one.<br />[Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with?]: probably. i don't understand why people don't have a chance with other people. or some people are out of your league or whatever. since when is one person better than someone else and why. <br />[Have you ever cried over the opposite sex?]: yes.<br />[Do you have a "type" of person you always go after?]: not really anymore. <br />[Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you]: who doesn't?<br />[Rather be the dumper or dumped?]: dumper.<br />[Rather have a relationship or a "hookup"?]: i'd rather have a relationship.<br />[Ever liked your best guy/girl friend?]: i don't think so.<br />[Want to get married?]: one day.<br />[Want kids?]: not now. later.<br />[Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time?]: of course i don't.<br />[What is your favorite part of your physical appearance?]: i like my back. it has dimples.<br />[What is your favorite part of your emotional being?]: uh?<br />[Are you happy with you?]: right now i'm content with myself. i have goals and ambitions, i have a new apartment alone and that's cool, i'm making friends and going out and having fun, i have a job. life is pretty good.<br />[Are you happy with your life?]: above ^ pretty much sums this one up too. http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/188278.html public 0 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/187970.html Mon, 03 May 2004 13:53:18 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/187970.html sundays are the fun days!<br />i worked last night. it was really slow so we goofed around a lot, but it was fun. drank some beer, shot carl with a water pistol int he face, then i shot him with some vinegar. ate some food, drank more beer, and then i got to leave early cause it was really dead and there weren't any dishes to wash or anything. then me and erin drank a beer and walked to the state theater to go see a show. then after the show we went to the bar, and drank more beer.<br />now it's 10am and i am awake.<br />oh yeah, johnny said i might actually get to work at walter's full time. that would be awesome.<br />i've been meeting some cool people, hanging out a lot and having fun. it's definitely a change, but it's a good one. it's fun. i might as well have fun while i'm young. http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/187970.html public 0 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/187884.html Sun, 02 May 2004 15:32:39 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/187884.html i thought i was going to stay in last night but i ended up going out. mike called me and told me their was a party in the west end so i decided to just go. so i met up with him and this girl mariah and we went. there were a FEW people there that i knew. it was cool, i wasn't drunk so i was really quiet. then i got drunk and everyone was leaving. there was a bunch of us sitting on the sidewalk out front and just as we were leaving a cop pulled over and said there were noise complaints, so we were like "oh yeah we were just leaving" and we left. we were all drunk and drinking beer. then we all came back to my house and sat around for a while. mike passed out as soon as he got here. then molly passed out next to him. then i went to sleep and erin went to sleep. i had to sleep in my bed with two people, one of which was SNORING so loud.<br />erin and i are going to a punk show tonight. oh man. we're gonna pick up some skinny boys with tight jeans. shiiiit.<br />work at 3. i'm scared. but it will be ok. at least i'll have some billz. http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/187884.html public 1 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/187540.html Thu, 29 Apr 2004 17:48:28 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/187540.html - i couldn't fall asleep until 7:30 this morning.<br />+ i only slept until 1, so i didn't wate the whole day<br />- the mailman doesn't come until like 3 or 3:30. i'm waiting for important things like my phone charger and a few dollars from my grandma<br />- my taxes don't get sent OUT to me until tomorrow<br />+ at least they are getting sent out, and it should only take a day or two<br />- my apartment is a mess. i need to clean it<br /><br />hmm. is anyone good at building things? i want someone to build me a loft bed, so i can have more room. if i had one of those then i could put my dresser (once i get it) and computer under the bed then i'd have all this floor space for my "living room" area. yeah. when i get my taxes the first thing i'm buying is a broom, cause this floor is getting dirty. can you buy coffee grounds with food stamps? http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/187540.html public 0 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/187212.html Tue, 27 Apr 2004 23:17:29 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/187212.html 01. What is the middle name of the first person you ever slept with?<br />i know his first and last name. but not his middle. let's not talk about that.<br />02. What kind of underwear are you wearing and what color?<br />i'm going commando<br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br />03. What is the song you want played at your funeral?<br />all of the cure<br />04. What is the phone number of your sluttiest friend so some of the single people can get some action?<br />i don't know. i'm sure if you go to boston there'll be some sluts at a party or something. go get fucked!<br />05. What would your last meal be before getting executed?<br />cheesecake. and that's it. with some cherries on it.<br />06. Beatles or Stones?<br />the beatles.<br />07. If you had to pick one person on earth who should die, who would it be?<br />i'll have to go w/ somthingscatchy on this one: well i have a shit list. so everyone on that. i'm not naming any names because i don't want someone to hit me. cause i'll end up killing them.<br />08. Beer, wine or hard liquor?<br />all three, mixed together. uh gross. sometimes beer, sometimes wine, and sometimes hard liquor.<br />09. What is the thing most important to you about the opposite sex?<br />as long as they have dyed black hair and a white belt then that's all i need. no not really, personality, and whether or not i can hold a conversation with them and not run out of shit to talk about. it really sucks being with someone and not talking ever.<br />10. Do you secretly hate some of your Friendsters / LJ friends but are too nice to reject them?<br />i hate everyone.<br />11. If you could have any super power what would it be?<br />i wanna see people naked through their clothes. and i want to be able to see peoples thoughts.<br />12. Favorite hangover cure?<br />sleeping until 5pm. or xanax.<br />13. How many drinks does it take to get you drunk?<br />beer = a little. vodka = a whole lot.<br />14. Where is Jimmy Hoffa?<br />up my ass.<br />15. Hair color you most like someone you're dating to have?<br />brownish. i don't know, or care.<br />16. If you had to be blind or deaf?<br />blind.<br />17. Do you have any psychiatric problems?<br />i have depression, but who doesn't, i have anxiety attacks, which are sometimes sever and turn into full on panic attacks, adhd, and probably a whole bunch of other shit.<br />18. Siblings that should go to rehab?<br />only child!<br />19. Least favorite month?<br />the cold ones.<br />20. Favorite hateful thing to do to someone?<br />stick something in their butt.<br />21. First movie you can remember seeing as a kid?<br />i really don't remember. labyrinth?<br />22. Favorite person in the whole world?<br />you.<br />23. When's the last time you went on a date?<br />not tooooo long ago. i don't know. last real date was in boston, with a fellow named Ryan Todd.<br />24. Do you like violent movies or dirty movies?<br />both baby, bring it on.<br />25. Fall or spring?<br />both!<br />26. Person you most wish you hadn't made out with?<br />a lot of people.<br />27. Make up your own question and answer it here.<br />who do you think i am?<br />"god"<br />28. If you are straight, what person of the same sex would you do it with?<br />sofia coppola.<br />29. Were do you want to live when you are old and brittle?<br />a house on the beach down south.<br />30. Who is the person you can count on most?<br />my grandparents, katherine.<br />31. If you could date any celebrity past or present, if time and age are not factors, who would it be?<br />johnny depp.<br />32. What books have you pretended you've read?<br />i don't pretend, i'm for real.<br />33. What's a word you would use to describe your life?<br />crazy.<br />34. Favorite drinking game?<br />THE OC DRINKING GAME!<br />35. What did you dream last night?<br />i didn't have one last night.<br />36. Favorite vices?<br />drinking, smoking.<br />37. What is the last thing you'd ever tell someone?<br />i'll be back.<br /><a name="cutid2"></a> http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/187212.html public 0 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/186949.html Tue, 27 Apr 2004 21:26:30 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/186949.html uhm. i'm at the library and looking up furniture and stuff online. some of this stuff is fucking EXPENSIVE. i think i'm going to start making firniture, cause you can sell it for thousands of dollars. oh man. http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/186949.html public 0 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/186833.html Tue, 27 Apr 2004 01:07:52 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/186833.html <b>new screename</b>: courir avec moi<br /><br />add that shit. http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/186833.html public 0 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/186447.html Mon, 26 Apr 2004 01:08:55 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/186447.html "each of us has a weapon now. even if the time comes to use them again it'll never be an easy choice, but we've got no choice but to keep moving foward. no matter how far, run for all you're worth. run." http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/186447.html public 0 http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/186325.html Sun, 25 Apr 2004 00:12:26 GMT http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/186325.html there's a letter sitting on top of the mailboxes. a card. it was sent to christopher kimball, from e. kimball. apartment 408. i looked at all the mailboxes, found apartment 408, no kimball. that card that's just sitting on top of the mailboxes makes me sad. maybe it was christophers mother, or father. sending thier son a card. a card to tell their son something like happy birthday, or i love you. maybe christopher moved or something, but what if he doesn't get the card. you can tell the writing on the envelope is an older persons handwriting, which makes it even sadder.<br />i don't know. it just almost made me cry, thinking about that card, and christopher, and his mom or dad. http://plasticrobot.livejournal.com/186325.html public 3