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[22 Jun 2004|08:47am] |
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i'm in such a good mood today! i don't know why! i woke up at 8am and i was chipper and wide awake. WEIRD. i'm normally not a morning person but apparently today i am! ok off to work i go.
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[21 Jun 2004|03:48am] |
june 11th - 13th: nyc
july 13th - 16th: palm beach! (tentative dates)
first week in december: orlando
OH MAN!
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[19 Jun 2004|03:41am] |
i have decided today that i'm going to spend most of my time doing productive things. i'm going to learn how to knit and i'm going to start sewing again. i'm going to make sure my house is clean ALL the time. read more books. i just finished one today as a matter of fact. i'm going to watch a lot of movies and drink a lot of tea. i'm going to start writing a lot more often. maybe i'll start writing a book. i'm going to start making things. i'm going to learn how to build things and fix things. i'm going to learn another language and then in a few years i'm going to visit a country and use the language that i've learned. i'm going to stop going out a lot and start focusing on saving my money. i'm going to stop drinking beer and see what drinking water is like. i'm going to start listening to music that ii've never heard before. i'm going to spend a lot of time laying around in my bed doing a whole lot of nothing, because nothing is a whole lot of something sometimes. i'm going to take long walks. i'm going to get a bike and ride it everywhere. i'm going to use the 10 months i have left here to learn more about myself. i'm going to use this ten months to get something accomplished. i'm going to cuddle with my cat more often, and i'm going to sit and listen to the thunderstorms and not be afraid. i'm going to check my mail every other day and not worry about when something hasn't come yet. i'm going to remember that in ten years all the stupid shit that happens probably won't matter, and i probably won't even remember it. i'm going to think a lot more and make alot of plans. i'm going to go on vacation in december with my mom, and it's going to be fun. i'm going to hide my fake ID so i forget where i put it. i'm going to meet more people and i'm going to sit up and have intense conversations all night. i'm going to watch the sun set and the sun rise. i'm going to go to work and i'm going to make money, then i'm going to save that money so i can do something for once.
i've already changed a lot, but i have such along way to go. in the end a lot of people aren't going to know who i am.
new york in a few weeks. yay! i get to see people i havent seen in YEARS. seriously. i get to hang out with sean, and i miss him. it's going to be awesome.
i can't sleep. but i'm not worried about it. i don't have to work until 3pm tomorrow. i can sleep in all i want. it will be great. the next ten months is about ME. i'm happy now, but when i leave here i'm going to be the happiest person in the world. you know why? cause i'm going to have done so much stuff that i've wanted to do for a long time but i haven't been able to because i don't have motivation or patience.
now the only thing left to do is find someone that i can cook dinenr for and cuddle with at night.
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[15 Jun 2004|06:53pm] |
i weighed myself on the scale at work today and i have gained an incredible amount of weight in the past few months. i've always weighed around 115, i now weigh almost 139. so i'm going on a diet and i'm going to start a daily workout routine.
- i'm only going to eat red meat once a month. i'm just going to eat fish occasionally now for protein, and stuff like that. maybe like once or twice a week, and smaller portions.
- for the next two weeks i'm staying away from bread, pasta, ect.
- no more eggs. only egg whites.
- no more soda, drinks with lots of sugar and a LOT less alcohol. i'm going to drink at least 8 glasses of water a day and i'm limiting myself to drinking beer only one day a week, 2 at most.
- NO MORE EATING OUT.
- lots of fruit and vegetables.
- no sauces and smaller portions.
- i'm going to attempt to eat 6 small meals a day. like 2 egg whites for breakfast, a peice of fruit for a snack, a salad for lunch, some carrot sticks for another snack, a small peice of fish and some vegetables for dinner, ect.
i'm going to do at least 50 stomach crunches daily, and jogging.
i'm not fat, and i know this. but i'm way out of shape and i'd like to get back down to 115 because i'm not happy.
i ALSO have to make a budget, because i'm planning on moving to NYC once my lease is up here.
WEEKLY BUDGET
RENT: $125
NYC FUND: $50
BILLS: $60
FOOD: $15 (my food stamps weren't renewed for some reason. but i can get a lot of vegetables ect from work, so i don't have to spend much on food,w hich is good)
HABITS: $8 (i'm only going to allow myself to purchase 2 packs of cigarettes a week. since i'm cutting down on drinking it hopefully won't be hard)
LIVING: whatever is left over. i'll be making more than $200 a week so i'll be able to afford stuff i need, like tampons or whatever.
= $258+
i work about 24 hours at Walter's @ $8.50/hr, so that is about $200
the i'm going to be working quite a few hours at MLD @ $10/hr about 9 hours a day AT LEAST 3 days a week, and last time my check was $192 for 22 hours, so i'll be making at least $200 a week there so in all that's like $400. i definitely will ave enough money for my budget, and i'll probably be able to save more than $50 a week
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[14 Jun 2004|01:11pm] |
i got a dresser
it's red, but i am going to paint it bright green. i think.
i have a busy schedule for the next two weeks.
today: work @ walter's (the resteraunt). 3pm - 9:30ish
tomorrow: work at maine lobster direct. 10am - 5pm
friday: walter's. 5 - 10:30ish
saturday: off
sunday: walter's. 3 - 9:30ish
monday: walter's. 3 - 9:30ish
tuesday: off
wednesday: walter's. 3 - 9:30ish
thursday: maine lobster direct. 8am - 5pm
friday: maine lobster direct. 8am - 4:30 THEN walter's. 5 - 10:30ish
so yeah that's the upcoming week or so. then on june 11th i will be heading to NYC to help my friend molly move. i will be there the 11th and 12th and i will start heading back to maine on the morning of the 13th. then that week will be way fuller than this week.
starting monday i'm working all week at maine lobster direct at 8am, then on monday, wednesday and friday night i will be going straight from maine lobster direct to walter's to work. i'm going to be so tired. but i'm going to be able to save so much money. i'm so excited.
i'm going to start saving for in 10 months when my lease is up ihere and i move somewhere else.
woo!
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[14 May 2004|03:32pm] |
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I'M GOING TO GET TO SEE THE CURE IN AUGUST. OH MY GOD I'M GOING TO HAVE AN ORGASM.
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[12 May 2004|02:10pm] |
Ten things that make me smile:
10. cuddling.
9. plants and flowers.
8. this beautiful weather.
7. being stoned, cause i just can't help it.
6. the beach.
5. my friends.
4. dancing.
3. boo kitty.
2. photographs.
1. cute boys.
Nine things that make me mad:
9. scenesters.
8. boston.
7. when my apartment gets dirty.
6. falling asleep when there's a hot guy laying next to me when i totally wanted to make out with him.
5. scenesters.
4. boston.
3. scenesters.
2. joy.
1. rape.
Eight things I couldn't live without:
8. beer.
7. money.
6. music.
5. the internet.
4. food.
3. boo kitty.
2. my friends.
1. a place to live.
Seven people I am thankful for:
7. my grandparents.
6. katherine.
5. my new portland crew.
4. the old 82 fisher ave. crew.
3. jeremy radd because he is my hero.
2. the bartenders at amigos.
1. boo kitty.
Six things I want to acomplish before I die:
6. i want to get my life together. before i die, but mostly in the next year or two.
5. make a portfolio, gain experience in the feild i want a career in, and actually decide what i really want to do with my life.
4. get married and make babies.
3. have a lot of fun.
2. see the entire world, inside and out.
1. do things that i never thought i would do, or could do.
Five things I am wearing right now:
5. jean skirt.
4. white wife beater with a skull on the front that says bony.
3. pink cardigan.
2. studded belt.
1. underwear.
Four things I want to do today:
4. go to work, i don't want to but i have to.
3. clean my apartment.
2. listen to music and dance around.
1. rest!
Three things on my mind:
3. that i'm an idiot for passing out last night when i COULD have made out, probably. dammit beer. dammit xanax.
2. how much i just want to not go to work and lay in the sun all day.
1. that there's an awful lot of beer cans on my floor.
Two things I miss:
2. not boston. that's for sure.
1. buying new clothes every day at my old job.
One thing I wish I had
1. a HOT boyfriend!
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[10 May 2004|12:43am] |
you know what kind of day you're going to have by the first thing that happens after you wake up. i should have just prepared myself for the worst.
1. i woke up all cranky/grumpy/drunk at 9:30am, falling off my bed because people slept over again.
2. got in a fight with my friend about something. we had a big long fight all day through text messaging/telephone and friends.
3. went into work all banged up. my knees hurt bad, i was hungover and grumpy. still.
4. sliced my finger open on a peice of metal, real bad. i bled a LOT. all over my coat, apron, and 2 towels. bled through a bunch of bandages. had to wear a rubber glove at work - and let me tell you. washing dishes is NOT easy with a rubber glove on. it's all slippery and you drop things and ugh.
5. the water was so HOT today wt work while i was washing the dishes. i must have 3rd degree burns.
6. it was really busy and i've never actually done all that stuff alone, and while busy. i didn't know everything to do. so people got frustrated, and i was scared to ask anyone anything cause i thought they'd get all pissed.
ugh.
mothers day. blah. i never want to work holidays again.
i'm working tomorrow. i wish i could just sleep in but whatever, one mroe day. it won't be that busy so it should be a lot better - except for my aching body.
i just want a back rub and a weeks worth of sleep.
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[09 May 2004|01:24pm] |
save the drama for your mama.
seriously.
crazy weekend. girls gone WILD! we've been tearing up the town like it's our job.
last night i managed to do SOMETHING to my knee. dislocate it, something. all i know is it's all bruised, swollen and it hurts like hell. my other knee is also in pain because the night before last i somehow managed to cut it on something on the walk home. i had a bloody knee.
i have to go to work in a few minutes. suuuuck. oh well, it's money.
last night i lost a pack of cigarettes in my apartment somehwere. but the night before last i gained a plaster horse head sculpture. score.
i need to take a break and sleep for like a week.
object of the week: cocktails!
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[06 May 2004|08:28pm] |
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